Mock me!

Today I took paper 1(reading) and 4(listening) mock tests. I usually feel stupid when I take mocks, I suppose they’re called mocks because your answers are so idiotic that your teacher (or whoever corrects your test) is bound to mock you forever. For some reason I can easily picture @hoprea thinking ‘How can anyone think this is the right alternative?’ while he corrects my tests. Obviously, this makes little sense if you think about it but I can’t help but feel embarrassed and insecure every time I hand in a test or a composition.

Today’s tests weren’t any different, I didn’t feel more confident than I usually do and I certainly didn’t feel it was easy. However, my grades were much higher! Apparently, these particular tests were in fact easier than the ones I’d taken before because everybody else’s results were really good as well. Anyhow, I still want to believe I’m improving and I’ve decided to use these results as a self-esteem booster.

Maybe  taking mock tests is hard for me because my choice of strategies is completely irrational. I really need to find out a way to tackle the questions effectively. I noticed today that I lose my train of thought quite often and especially during Listening, I just stop paying attention for no reason.  Also, I can’t seem to trust my gut nor my knowledge.  I’m never 100% sure and ALL my answers feel like guesses. Is this normal?  Well, I think being used to tests and feeling comfortable taking them is a key factor on CPE and that’s something I really have to work on. So, let the mocks begin!

Iara –  #nowplaying Feeling Good_Michael Bublé